HEYYYYY!!!

guess who haznt been on xanga for a while?! i havent!!!! >_< yea, there iz no excuse (like i need one  ) for me not updatin.

ah well, i'll try to update more, n mayb comment on pplz pages i havent talked to for a loooooooong while.

or mayb, i'll just write thiz one time, n nvr write again

 we'll c what happenz.....or mayb we wont (which kinda didnt make sense )

all well, laterz

hello people...

just like the title says, my dog was put to sleep two weeks ago, and i just found out. how did i now just find out, you may wonder? well, my dog is...was...a pretty quiet dog, and he usually kept to himself. It wasn't until about 10 minutes ago did my sister come into the living room where my father and i were watching TV and my mother reading. She asked my mom and dad if they'd she Pudgy (the dog). Neither of them said anything. She asked again, again no response. Then she asked my mother directly, and she said, "ask your father." This is what triggered in my mind that something was wrong. I got up and went to check to see if there was still dog food at the top of the basement stairs...there wasn't any...I went into the living room and asked them myself. I got the same answer they gave to my sister the first two times, absolute silence. SO i walked infront of the TV and asked again, excapt a little more demanding. Thats when my dad told me that "yes" he did put the dog to sleep. The surpise hit me for a second and i asked when. Then they told me exactly what i didnt want to here..they had put him down two weeks ago while i was at work...TWO F***ING WEEKS AGO!!!! AND THEY DIDNT EVEN TELL US!!!! needless to say, i was shocked and angry. I asked why they didn"t tell us, and my mom said because she wanted to see how long it would take us to find out. What the HELL kind of game is that??!!! ooo...lets see how long it takes you before you realize that your dog is DEAD!!!

I saw it comming, putting my dog to sleep...he wasn't doing too well, and wasn't feeling well..besides, he was getting old...i had him since i was about eight, so he was definatly old...but what parent would do that to their children? wait for their children to find out that thier dog had died. that's almost sadistic. but i'm not sure who to be angry with most...them because they had the audacity to not tell us and wait to see how long it would take us to find out, or me for not noticing sooner that my dog had been missing for the past two weeks. i don't know...i'm happy that he's in a better place now, but i feel horrible for not noticing he was gone, i feel almost that i disgraced his memory by forgetting that my dog, the dog i picked out as a puppy when i was eight, the dog i used to play with and the dog that used to make sure we were safe, was gone. i loved y dog, i really did, that's why i feel bad that my parents decided to make some sick game out of it and that i was too ignorant to realize it.

some peopl would criticize me for caring this much about a dog, but i don't care! i loved him a lot! And i feel like i disgraced the memory of him by not knowing.

So i don't know whether i'm going to feel better about this anytime soon or what, but i will always charish my dog, Pudgy. and for all those who think i'm a little wuss and need to grow up and get over it, you all can go to hell! i don't give damn what you think!

that's all i'm going to type for now, i'm still feeling a bit bad...i little better though.(i normally feel better after i write)

so everyone have a good night..i know i won't.

RIP: PUDGY...i will always remember you...